Friendships in my head

As everyday goes by
i feel more and more alone
sometimes i think my friends don't care
because they don't stop by or phone

but you might say why cant you call?
i would but i want them to think of me
instead of me thinking of them
do you get it now? do you see?

sometimes its like no one cares
i think I'm losing my best friend
but to me, i was just a replacement
for another friendship that will never end

it may seem like I'm jealous
ill admit it, its true
i cant help to think this way
what else am i to do?

i cant think of happy thoughts
or a bright sunny day
cause every friend i make
someone else takes them away

they say they are still there for me
to me it is just a lie
because they are never around
sometimes i wanna crawl somewhere and die

so to keep my heart from pain
i will not get close to anyone
because i always end up hurt
the friendships i once had were fun

but now I'm alone
as it always is
theres nowhere for me to go
my famous words, what isn't mine--is his