A casket lay open
With a young girl inside
Looking gorgeous in a beautiful red dress
She finally doesn't have to hide
She's never looked so happy
Never looked so proud
In the red dress she was going to wear to prom
Never again would she be lost in a crowd
It's amazing the people that show up for the showing
None of them cared when she went to them for help
They didn't get the hints
They didn't know how she actually felt
Her eyes are peacefully closed
Amazing its the first time she hasn't got tears
Its the first time she's never felt pain
She hasn't got anymore fears
Being alone
Feeling alone
Hurting alone
Now dying alone
Wasn't such a change
You get used to it after awhile
It's not like it all happens in one big bang
With this constant dream
she fears she'll always be alone
she fears she'll always have this ecruication pain
and she fears she'll die without telling her story
As she writes her note
She tells of herself and her story
She promised it wouldn't be boring
She told of her life and of her past
She told of her dreams and hopes
With tearsdrops on her paper a lonely girl sits quiet and thinking as she writes her last words...
She says,
" Be happy I did this. No one else can hurt me. No one else needs to ignore me. No one needs to see me cry anymore. I no longer have to lie awake at night. I no longer have to sit here and slowly die.
I'll be alive in your hearts if you truely cared. If not than it wont be to hard to bare. I love all of you even the ones that hurt me so bad. Someday you'll realize it was meant to be. Just be happy it wasn't you and it was me.
I understand your pain, trust me I know. You'll get over it, and you'll forget me. My life was hard and you didn't make it better. I asked for someone to care and I was shut out. For once I chose to be alone and YOU can't hurt me. This'll be okay, I'm finally free.
I can honestly say I have a smile on my face. Remember me when I used to do that a lot. It's been so hard lately. I want you to remember me being happy and laughing. Dont remember the tears. Don't remember the cutting. Remember the girl I used to be. Just remember how I went to you for help and how I was just shut
out. Don't be to hard on yourself.
Look at me now, see look into my eyes. Do you see anything there? Nothings there thats the first time in years. You should be happy not so sad. It really isn't all that bad.
You never tried its okay I'm not the only one with problems. I understand you will feel guilty but I did this for me. No one else wanted to help so what else is there to do when all you feel is pain.
It's about time I did something before I die of sorrow. Do you think its a sin? I hope not... heaven or hell it'll be okay,... nothing can be as bad as the false life I was living. I need you to do one thing for me. Don't mourn for me, Put a smile on, and its okay to cry. No worries time will fly by. I love you and I always will, your baby girl :). "
*I really feel this happening*
(Can I get some input please?)
