In his footsteps

I had a feeling, that I was gonna be late
I told Chris and he had a smile on his face
He wants to be a daddy more then anything in the world
He loves me no matter what but what we both want deeply is a child of our own

He was thinking of names, all his comrades proud
We already have a down payment on a 3 bedroom house
He was so anxious to have a baby with me
That it hurt so bad when I took the test and and it said
Negative for a pregnancy..
I'm young yes and its probably for the best
But I've grown so much, leaving my friends in the dust
They hope and pray that every month
They get the sign that their not pregnant
But here I sit, getting married in June
I wasn't scared for myself, I wanted this one
Yet my friends got a smile and congratulated me on not being with child
I shrugged off their compliments and didn't talk for awhile

Ive grown apart from them, something I was always afraid to do
I feel in love and I'm going to get married soon, I'm moving away from everything that Ive known
To start a new life, one of my own

...even though I knew it would be hard and I'm so young.
WE wanted this baby...but there is nothing to cheer about.

Chris wanted a little one to follow in his footsteps, even though I assure him we have plenty of time for that.
Its an excuse, I don't even want to hear it.
But I know in my heart that my boys will be wearing combat boots too.
Hopefully the wars will be done by then.