You cant see the real me

I am alive, but not on th inside
behind false happiness is
where I always hide
I am a person,
but not who you think
really my heart is blacker than ink
I live here on earth
or so it may seem,cuz i visit hell
every night in my dreams
I am a rebel,I'll make my
own choice instead
except for the voices i
hear in my head
I am an artist,I'll show you the dark
even better, I'll show you my tattered heart
I am alive,but my real
life isn't in sight
come and let me show you hell tonight!