Today.. All My Love For You

I'm kissing him while I think of you
And how we were just a few hours before
Can't believe I knew what to do
And how right now I want you more

I'm holding him while I hold you in my heart
You know full well this is tearing me apart
And I wonder how this makes you feel
As I wonder if this time it's real
The feeling of my body against yours, I swear
I never thought I could feel that way.. Do I dare
To try and lean in, steal a kiss
Because I've never ever felt like this

I want you like nothing else
And I need you; not anyone else
I miss you more than these words could ever make you see
But with a million more, could you ever love me?

Because people are telling me where we could go
But the word I'm scared of is a simple no
I know we're friends and sweetheart I'm happy I know you
But the simple fact is I'm in love with you
And I wonder if you ever think of me
And what way this is supposed to be

Because nothing will ever compare to that moment
...

Today will be all I dream of
Tomorrow and in a thousand hours
All consumed by you, my mind is not
Systematic, logical, it's all gone; trailing after you

Whispers in the night of how you & I could be
Regret of speaking my heart comes back and tortures me
But no matter, because I feel I've made something
And it has not yet crumbled...

Darling you are a gift, and my intent is noble
T o l o v e a n d c h e r i s h y o u
This may sound to you a little odd,
{and as I write this a smile passes through my lips}
Which is unusual as I usually cannot smile without you
But, honey, you are my life...

And if today was all we had.. Then today shall be my last day