When I Look at You, I See Him

I look at you,
and i see him,
not a lover,
nor a friend.

i remeber the hurt,
the pain.
the strife.
i remeber the night,
i almost took,
my own life.

i rember the beatings,
the brutal fights,
the almost happy moments,
i remeber the late nights.

when i look at you,
i see him,
also my broken heart,
will it ever mend?

my heart aches for the love,
i never had,
doesn\'t it hurt you?
isn\'t it sad?

he hurt me more,
than i could ever bare,
my heart again,
i feel it tear.

there i go again,
hoping we could be,
maybe even one day,
start a family.

but....

i look at you,
and i see him,
not a lover,
nor a friend.

~*~Good-Bye Michael,forgood