Hurting really bad..

I hold the towel up to me face,
Sat down against the door,
I cannot stop my crying,
Disappointment leads me to more.

I get up and put the tap on,
And splash cold water on my distant face,
I look deep into the mirror
Seen looking back, is an empty space.

I feel the breeze come through the window,
So I take in a breath of air,
I cannot face the world outside,
Who walk past me and stare.

I hear my mother call my name,
And I swallow hard and say,
'Ill be down in a minute mum,
Dont worry im ok'.

She does not know my pain,
She doesnt know how I feel inside,
My body carries on,
Even though inside, Ive died.