Love?

I loved him I really did. I would look at his face, see his smiling eyes, shining mouth. He'd pass by me and I'd just want to grab him hold him , just once, but I never did. It all started in grade 9. He was the quiet type, the kind no one noticed. I on the other hand was popular, I dated the captain of the football team, and was the envy of every girl. To the outside eye I had everything I could ever want; but they were wrong. This boy had caught my eye I wanted to talk to him. But I never did something was holding me back. It might have been the fact he didn't s seem real. Or maybe that I was expected to talk to the important people not him, but whatever the reason was, it had stopped me. The years went by. Grade 10, 11 and soon came grade 12. I never forgot about that boy. He was in my mind everyday, but I never saw him anymore. I figured I had been right, he never really existed he just was something I wanted that I never could have. I tried and tried to forget about him and then one day there he was. I saw his smiling eyes and his shining mouth, and it was like I'd known him forever. He was sitting in the corner eating his lunch just like he had every other day. I ran towards him myheartracing, and then there was the girl. They were holding hands. She was looking at his smiling eyes and his shining mouth, I wanted to be there, but I had lost my chance. He looked at me, I looked at him. I wanted to cry, I wanted to hold his hand, but he just looked at me. I slowly backed away, heartbroken. I needed him to stop looking at me but he didn't , he kept staring. I felt the tears roll down my cheeks, he was seeing me cry! I tried to run but I couldn't, his gaze holding me. I'll never know how long I looked at him for but it seemed like forever. As I cried and cried, and then he started to cry too. I looked at him wanted to hold him wanted to love him! This time that girl was holding me back. He stood up, I stood still, I reached out for him, and then ran. Now I'm sitting here in my room, not knowing why I ran or what had made me never talk to him all these years. I guess Iâ??ll never really know. I lived my life everyday waiting until the pain went away but it never did. It's still here today.

I loved her I really did. I would look at her face, see her smiling eyes, and shining mouth. She would always pass by me and I'd just want to grab her hold her, just once, but I never did. It all started in grade 9. She was the popular type, the kind everyone knew. I on the other hand was quiet, and unnoticed. I'd never dated anyone, I had good marks, a good life, but just another person to fill the school. To the outside eye, I had nothing I ever wanted; but they were wrong. I had everything but her. This girl had caught my eye I wanted to talk to her. But I never did something was holding me back. It might have been the fact I knew it was too good to be true. Or maybe that I knew I never had a chance with her, but whatever the reason was, it had stopped me. The years went by. Grade 10, 11 and soon came grade 12. I never forgot about that girl. She was in my mind everyday, I but I never saw her anymore. I figured I had been right, it had been too good to be true, she was just something I wanted that I never could have. I tried and tried o forget about her, and then on day there she was. I saw her smiling eyes and shining mouth, and it was like I'd known her forever. She was standing there just looking at me, she ran towards me! My heart started racing, and then she saw the girl. The girl who was holding my hand, that I had tried to substitute for her but never quite filled her place. I looked at her smiling eyes and her shining mouth, I wanted her to be here, but I had lost my chance. She looked at me, I looked at her. I wanted to cry, I wanted to hold her hand, but she just looked at me. She started to back away, I was heartbroken. I needed her to stop looking at me but she didn't she kept staring. I saw the tear rollll down her cheeks, I saw her cry! I tried to run to her, but I couldn't, her gaze was holding me. I'll never know how long I looked at her for, but it seemed like forever. As she cried and cried, I started to cry too. I looked at her, wanted to hold her wanted to love her! This time the girl beside me was holding me back. I stood up, She stood still, She reached out for me, and then she ran. Now I'm sitting here in my room, not knowing why I didn't run to her, or what made me never talk to her all these years. I guess I'll never really know. I lived my life everyday waiting until the pain went away, but it never did. It's still here today.