Sorry "Mother"

Sorry for everything that I've ever done to you
Sorry for all the space I've taken over
Sorry about being a waste of your life
All we do anymore is fight
At times the nights seem endless and ever lasting
I've done all that I could ever do
I try every day to do something right
You break me down and tell me that I'm wrong once again
What more must I have to do to stay?
It's gotten so bad that I'm no longer safe in my own room
Every night I have a routine
A routine one you never knew of
You don't know me anymore
Never have really known me
You ask me where all your blades go
Well you don't know I have them
I have em locked in my room
Only for me to use
You've always told me how much of a mistake I am
I know I am
You no longer have to tell me
I k now what I am
I'm a waste, a mistake, a statistic
I'm sorry "Mother"
For you gave birth to me
I'm sorry "Mother"
That I've lived almost 18 years
I'm sorry...