Looking down at the blade trying to decide
where to cut next
whereâ??s the best spot that no one will guess
Trying to hide my marks and scars
sure brings a lot of stress
All I do is cry
I cant stand this!
It hurts so much words cant describe
Whatâ??s the point of living without you by my side
But do you even love me?
Do you think about me?
Because I love you and I think about you all the time
I think about me being with you along with your smile, your touch, keeping me alive
but your gone now and I donâ??t feel loved
I feel so broken inside
I feel like I wanna die
Everyday I ask myself the same question, â??Whatâ??s the point of living if the person I was living for is gone?\"
I donâ??t know how much more of this I can take
because my lifeâ??s at its rough stage and your not here to help me
and I need you to be
There are so many thoughts running through my head
suicide, my life and wanting it to end
I feel like its all slowly coming to an end
Even if God took my life unexpectedly Iâ??d want you to be by my side because I know that you would be there loving me for me
Maybe it would be better off if I was dead
I could watch over you instead and keep you strong like you did for me
But like I said your gone and all it does is hurt me
I wish I never had to leave
If only I could see your face, feel your hugs. Feel loved
But I cant
So I will keep pretending that Iâ??m happy, wash away my tears, and pray that no one will ever have to see what I truly feel inside
broken and incomplete is all Iâ??ll ever be...
