The biggest question is...Am I?

He told me he believes I am falling in love
But for a long time I haven't allowed myself to give my heart that shove
He thinks I am falling for him
I believe that chance is slim
Even though deep down I think I might
For my heart jumps when he is in sight
I was hurt once badly
So I gave up love sadly
When a female loves him he wants to leave
Because he too is afraid to grieve
But he told me if that's what I feel he wants to stay
I don't know what to think or even to say
He told me ill think about it
And soon that's what i'll admit
I tried to disagree
But he wouldn't listen to my plea
All he did was ask, "Then why is there a smile on your face?"
That made my heart race
For we were on the phone
So how could he have even known?
That gave me a little chill
The how he knew is unknown still
He knows me really well
If that's a good or bad thing I still can't tell
I believe it's a good thing
And other good things hopefully it'll bring
The biggest question is...Am I?
I don't want to yes because I am afraid that I might have to say good-bye
Why can't I tell?
I need to figure it out before I yell
He wants to know what's going on in my mind
But the answer to that I can not find
The biggest question is...Am I?
I only wish I could reply
With time and thought I am going to say...yes
I don't believe I said, "Yes"...there you go because this is what I must confess