Free Falling

What a golden day!!
The sun is shining on me,
Obviously.

How convenient!
How perfectly timed!
What a wonderful, kind, considerate girl!!

Did you pick it?
On purpose?
Coincide it with when I was low?
Or didn't you know?
"So close!" But not with me,
"It's always awkward with a three"
Oh how I know!

Trusting in you, to lend me your strength,
Like I've done in turn,
Considered, at length,
The best way to help.
But instead of feeling comfort,
Here I am;
Freefalling.

I jumped...
I did. Trusted in my parachute.
But it had a hole.
A heart shaped hole.

Careering through the dark night air,
Voices whistling in my ears,
Frenzied breezes catching at my hair.

I thought you were there,
For me.
But you're not.