I Breathe No More

How many times do I have to say "I love you"
Before I can truly say how much I do
There could never be a limit of my love for you
So why cant I just express a decent amount for you to understand?
I know you know how much I care about you
But, do you know just how much I need you too?
You're not just something I use to keep myself together
But you do help to do just that
You're always there to help me find that little bit of happiness in a day
Theres not a moment in the day you're not with me
Because, of course, you're always in my heart
And every time I feel alone I do try to remember that, I really do
But it never truly works..I still end up in tears, hour after hour
The clock keeps ticking as I lay on my side, tears dripping
I'll sit by the window, face masked by my hair
I don't want the world to see me, I just want you to see
Walk over to the mirror, stare at the reflection before me
I can't help but wonder..Which of us do you love?
Is it the one you want to see? The perfection you can't resist?
Is it the broken one you see? Want to reach out your hand to her?
Perfections the mask, my darling, you have to choose
But I'll tell you now that the one looking in the mirror, the one I truly am
Wants you with all her heart, shes the one who cries for you every hour, every day
But not all can resist temptation, the perfection and beauty before your eyes
I think though that through the perfection, that girl is just like me
You may choose her if you wish but it's still me you'll get
Just proves to me how your heart and mind work
How I wish I could see what you really think
Step away from the mirror, I can't take the blank stare of the living dead
Through the haze I find the way back to my corner, the place I belong
I don't deserve to find happiness, I deserve death for what I've become
All day long the voices in my head torment me
Tales of what I'll never be
I lay here in the dark, lonely and forgotten, I forget sometimes
Do I really exist?
Just awaiting the moment you come to save me, but if only you could
"Home is where the heart is" makes no sense to a girl with no home
But I do have a heart, and its slowly tearing itself apart
The hurt it causes while doing so, fills me up with anger I cant control
Clench my teeth and my fists together as the pain gets worse and worse
The waterfalls not allowing me to see out of my distressed hazel eyes
I sit here alone in the dark, waiting for you to come
Waiting until I breathe no more..