15 years alone

I am 15 years old
A mere 15 years
already wanting to die
I have not experienced the adventures of life
but for some reason that doesn't matter.
Everyday I force myself to survive
not for myself but for you.
My problems are petty & small
but everyone of them makes me fall
fall deeper & deeper into this trance of numbness
A feeling of no feeling that makes me hate myself
I feel everyday like ending it all
because death seems so much better
than facing the loneliness that haunts me
I feel alone, scared & alone
but that's all I am
An alone 15 year old girl
facing a new battle everyday
but never winning.