Midnight thoughts

My heart is crying,
While my soul is dying,
My body's in such pain,
I'm going in sane,

His name I'm screaming,
For once I'm not dreaming,
but no ones listening,
In sweat I'm glistening,

I'm hanging by thread,
Soon ill be dead,
This was surly fated,
How long have i waited?

I am nothing to the world,
on its finger I'm twirled,
So now i lie here,
Waiting in fear,

For my worst enemy,
Who Ive set free,
She haunts my every movement,
By whom is she sent?

Is this real or fake?
Why do i lie awake,
And think of what could have been?
Sooner or later she will win,

She goes around with out a trace,
My fate i now embrace,
I look up to see my enemy,
Only to find its only me,

And now all i can say,
Is that somewhere i lost my way.