I am not sure i understand but the last part got me i know how you feel it suck to have to wait for the one person you love.. i guess i dont understand cuz your in your 30's any way still like the poem 5.5

This is so very powerful and expressed so uniquely.I love the images and what you are saying.I can relate so deeply to this, having waited for 15 years for someone, alas mine did not turn out, I hope you fare better.This is written so well, the angst, the impatience, the love,the waiting- it works on so many levels.Excellent piece.