W o n d e r ii n g h o w ii t w ii l l e n d

All i ever wanted was a little bit of support
just a little bit of help
to get my life sort
now i sit here
with blade in my hand
thinking bout past times
and why i couldnt stand
i think about my mother
she looked down her nose at me
disappointed when i would cut
she really couldnt see
i think about my father
and how he was never around
moved across state
didnt want to be found
i think about my teacher
this one in particular
i thought she could help me
get through all my pain
but she was just thinking
that i was insane
I think about myself
on those dark lonesome nights
but i was the one
that never put up a fight.
The night i put down my blade
was the night it all changed
all i needed to do
was believe i was sane
i didnt want the looks
the whispers or the tears
so i put down my razor
and forgot all my fears.
so today i will do the same
and put it down again
and carry on with life
wondering how it will end..

mwahhzz