I Never

I never meant to kill you
I never meant for you to die
But of all the things I never
I never want to know why

I fear I know the answer
I'm being punished, you see
And after all the pain
God still punishes me

I've done a lot of bad
So I'm trying to be good
I'd take everything back
If only I could

The loss and pain is growing
I just wish that it would end
The biggest loss of all
was losing you, my friend

When all the love is gone
I have only hate to call my own
I swear I've learned my lesson
Why won't he leave me alone