Tonight Might Be The Night

Tonight she just laid there
To think if tonight should
Be the night, If tonight she
Should end her life and die.

It was only 6 and it was already
So dark, like if it was 10, so she
Had lots of time to think. And as
She laid there many thoughts came
To her mind.

She thought what if tonight really
Would be the night, would any of
Her family members or even friends
Would cry? Would they even care if
She did die? Do they love her and care
About her so much that at that moment
When they see her there, died in her
Bed, that they would have wished to die
First, to not go through the pain.

But then as she thought again if anyone
Cared, if anyone loved her, this came to
Mind, Maybe if they do should couldn't
Feel it, she couldn't hear it because of
All of her suffering and pain. It has her
Stuck, stuck in one state of mind, that
She can't feel or hear there love. And
Maybe if she actually let her pain free
Maybe she could feel it and hear it.

That she then wouldn't ever be stuck in
That one state again. So then again she
Laid there to think again, if tonight, if
That day should be the day her life ends
Or if she should keep it, keep her life
And just let free of all her sorrow and
Pain.