Have You Any Idea

Have you any idea what pain i feel inside
I push it all aside
With a slight little smile
Only making it last awhile

Have you any idea how many tears i cry at night
My world is slowly fading out of sight
I lay here on my bed
Thoughts of you rushing through my head

Have you any idea how much sadness i hold
It's been so long since I've loved
My heart grew oh, so cold
Remembering when i was beloved

Have you any idea how much I'm suffering
If you felt like i did you'd be agreeing
It feels like I'm drowning in the sea
Can't you see how it's hurting me

Once you held me in your soft embrace
Wiped the tears that streamed down my face
But now you've left me here feeling alone
I should i have known you'd leave me on my own

With your friends i never seemed to fit
Suicide i will not commit
But i feel so lonely
You were supposed to be my one & only

With you i felt so free
But you locked me up & threw away the key
This is where it all ends i suppose
But No one else knows

Have you any idea what pain i feel inside
I push it all aside
With a slight little smile
Only making it last awhile

Have you any idea how many tears i cry at night
My world is slowly fading out of sight
I lay here on my bed
Thoughts of you rushing through my head

Have you any idea how much sadness i hold
It's been so long since I've loved
My heart grew oh, so cold
Remembering when i was beloved

Have you any idea how much I'm suffering
If you felt like i did you'd be agreeing
It feels like I'm drowning in the sea
Can't you see how it's hurting me

You sweet lips agains't mine
Is what i truly miss
That caused shivers to go down my spine
What i don't understand is how could you do this

You left me to cry
I feel like i could just die
You never even said goodbye
That, i wonder why

I still can't believe i put my trust in you
Because you left me more then one clue
You left me & found someone new
I can't believe this was true

But it was fate
You found another mate
Now I'm left here to die
As crimson tears i cry

But...

What's worse is i see you everyday
And every night i pray
That i could survive another day
Each time i see your face
I have to look away
Because you're something i can't erase
But you're such a disgrace
To my love for you
What i say is true

Have you any idea what pain i feel inside
I push it all aside
With a slight little smile
Only making it last awhile

Have you any idea how many tears i cry at night
My world is slowly fading out of sight
I lay here on my bed
Thoughts of you rushing through my head

Have you any idea how much sadness i hold
It's been so long since I've loved
My heart grew oh, so cold
Remembering when i was beloved

Have you any idea how much I'm suffering
If you felt like i did you'd be agreeing
It feels like I'm drowning in the sea
Can't you see how it's hurting me

**I'm not even sure if it's done yet & i know it's long but deal with it, thanks! Good day, or evening or w/e....**