Hello is what i say,
but goodbye is what i want to say,
it is kind of sad,
i think,
but something has to happen,
with my life,
everything is bad,
with my family,
my mom and dad,
they do not fight, but they argue,
not often,
about things that do not matter,
so stupid,
but sometimes,
i wish something would happen,
my mom would leave my dad,
my dad would leave my mom,
it is bad to think about,
but i can not live like this,
i live depressed at home,
i never want to be there,
but i have to be,
they want me to suffer,
they are in pain,
the relationship is not perfect,
and i am in the middle,
i am an only child,
so that is my punishment,
to sit and do nothing,
when i am there,
in hell,
it kills me,
Kay, u are my escape,
i love u so much,
but i do not know,
how long i can stand it,
my dad drinks,
not too much,
but when he does,
he is bad,
u see anger in his eyes,
he is not violent,
but his voice kills u,
he is violent...mentally,
he kills me inside,
what can i do,
my mom loves him,
he doesn't hurt me,
why do i complain?
i just cant stand it,
my mom thinks about them,
she doesn't like,
the way things are going,
she tells me this,
would never mention it to dad,
he would go crazy she says,
if she ever left him,
he would not live,
he would take his life,
i want my father to live,
dint get me wrong,
but i know i cant stand it,
my mom is different, lately,
i think my dad might be a reason,
i get punished of course,
because their relationship,
is not what they wanted,
is it my fault?
that they can not,
get everything together?
I GUESS SO!!
i get so angry,
when i think about it,
how their problems,
become mine,
and i am the problem,
everything i do is wrong,
what i want is stupid?!
i don't understand them,
they need to figure out everything,
i know i need something to happen,
the best thing,
would be for them to split,
or sort their problems out,
because i cant stand it anymore,
I'm gonna go crazy,
i am not sane,
when i am here,
only when i am with Kay,
nothing will happen,
they are both stubborn,
and will not admit they are wrong,
when they are,
both of them have faults,
but it is me,
i am their problem,
that is all they actually talk about,
anymore, is me...
how much of a pain i am,
what a problem,
i don't care about them,
they can be together,
without me,
would that be the answer,
to their problems?
maybe...
all i know is someone has to go,
me, mom, dad...
someone, cuz I'm gonna go crazy,
all i want to say is goodbye,
goodbye mom,
goodbye dad,
they want to say goodbye Bree,
i would be happy,
no matter what,
as long as this doesn't go on,
anymore,
all i want to do is say goodbye,
GOODBYE SOMEONE!!
