Believe

My mind shuts down, I am so numb. You told
me not to drink that night, now I notice
your frown. It wasn't me mom,I swear! I was
the sober one. I went to that party, I was responsible. I thought of your love and care.I was on my way back home, when I looked up in the mirror.I noticed my hair disheveled,So I bent down for my comb.I should have known better. I hit an oncoming car and was thrown outside. I woke up numb hearing a man speaking to a woman.I was lying on a table, the woman was cutting off
my sweater. She asked the medic what happened, his response was,"Alcohol." The passengers in the other car were dead, and I was badly hurt. I really wanted to curl up into a ball.I noticed you next.You were in the corner weeping.We made eye contact,and then you werepushed out the door.I fell back asleep knowing you thought it was me.The doctors spent 8 hrs. on me,the hours slowly creeping.When I finally awoke,I was on machines.It was so hard to breath.I am slowly slipping,I don't want to cry.I'm watching you,Mom.I want you to know it wasn't me.You were crying as I spoke.You glanced over with your eyes so red,I told you what happened,even though it was hard.I tell you that I love you and dad, and when I die I want my headstone to read, "Our lil Angel" I pormise i will always be with you, and feel free to talk to me when your filled with dread.It's getting harder to breath and I struggle to keep my eyes open. These are the final moments;I'm beginning to feel numb again.I love you mom, tell dad i love him too. I am going home to heaven.