I wonder

Reduced to a broken shell
A shadow of what I was once
But would they care
I wonder what they would say
If they found me
Lying there motionless, lifeless
Crimson blood pouring from my wrists
A small smile on my face
Because its finally over
Or a smashed vodka bottle
With a bottle of pills by my side
At last its over
An escape
I wonder if they would cry
Over my demise
I wonder if they would feel the guilt
They so rightly deserve to feel
I wonder if they would feel regret
I wonder