The Demon Inside Of Me

You have taken the control of me
and I can no longer breathe
I have given up so long ago
I am dying and you don't even know

You haunts me day and night
I try my best not to lose this fight
But no matter what I do
I can't seem to win over you

You are the demon I have inside
You are the secret I deeply hide
Without you I am lost in this world
I am just another so called Ana girl

You are like a drug in my brain
without you I will surely go insane
You brought to me this depression
along with seeking for perfection

I am not good enough in your eyes
and I keep believing your lies
I starve myself, anything for you
But I am fat, no matter what I do

So I pretend that everything is okay
and when some one ask, I'll say:
"Don't worry about me, I am fine"
Then I'll fake a smile like other times

Now I am nothing but bones and skin
but still you make me hurt within
messing around with my confusing head
telling me I am better off being dead

So for you I will try to commit suicide
in attempt to kill my demon inside
and though I face you in the mirror every day
I just can't seem to make you go away

Until the day I finally give up
and my heart beat just stop
then Ana will smile proud at me
cause she knew I was dying slowly

The day is coming, maybe it's tomorrow
Then I will finally get rid of my sorrow
I just can't wait to be free
from Ana's demon living inside of me

*Ana = Anorexia*

Copyright 2006 - Sabrina Stelmach