Perfect Words

*It's very long but I like this poem... I don't know why. It's not to anyone, except maybe my exs who were too scared to say how they felt... Hehe. Take Care!*

I told him that 'I needed him', I held his hand in mine,
I look carefully at his face, I could till the end of time,
Then all he did was look away,
As if he couldn't bear me another day,
Then finally his lips parted to speak,
And he said... 'Wow...The skies such a pretty pink...'

And I swear, I could of cried that night,
If I hadn't of made myself keep on the light,
If I'd been given the choice I'd of given it in,
I'd of bathed in my tears, Washed him off my skin,
But no that didn't happen, Instead I carried on,
I put on make up, Got dressed, Sang along to my favourite song.

We were sitting in the field, Laughing at the passers by,
Then like a dream we both lay down, Stared up at the sky,
I squeezed his hand and told him what's true,
'When we go home I'm going to miss you...'
He kept on staring... In the grass he looked so young,
Then he finally lifted his head up... But all he did was hum,

And I swear I could of died that night,
From embarrassment, and shame, outside in the light,
You keep on pushing me further away,
With your inability to think of anything to say,
But no I stay still, Some reason I'm by your side,
Naked in eyesight, No where to hide.

We were running from the dance hall, Jogging under trees,
Rain drops falling, Surrounded by leaves,
Then you kissed me, Said I looked great,
While you called a taxi we sheltered for the wait,
I love you I said at no particular time,
But you just smiled... and looked for a road sign.

I swear I caught a cold that night,
From waiting with you 'cause I thought that was right,
I'd been offered about 3 lifts home,
But I didn't want to leave you all alone,
I can't take the fact only I say what I feel,
With only me saying it there's no way it feels real,

Walking home from school, I say what's on my mind,
'I don't think we should see each other... It doesn't feel right'
I tell him how I'm feeling and why I'm saying this,
Then he takes me in his hold makes me weak with a kiss,
'I need you, I miss you, I love you more each day,
I just wanted to say it at the right time... I think this is the perfect way...'

I swear I danced so much that night, all around my room,
I couldn't stop singing in my underpants, To my made up loved up tune,
Jumping on my bed, Ignoring it's creaks and groans,
Happiness down right everywhere, Bubbling through my bones,
Suddenly a bang, I'm lying on my floor,
And then it hits me, There's still tomorrow... There's still going to be so much more.

©Elle
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