I Pretend

I pretend I'm okay
when I really wanna cry
I pretend I can make it
when I really wanna die

I pretend I don't hear you
when you tell me goodbye
I pretend I don't see
the tears in your eyes

I pretend not to feel it
every time you hold me
I pretend not to notice
When you tell me you love me

I pretend not to see it
when you walk away
I pretend I know everything
when I don't know what to say

I pretend not to love you
though its so hard to hide
I pretend it doesnt hurt
every time I've lied

I pretend not to hear
when you use that gentle voice
I pretend I cant do it
I pretend its my choice

I pretend you don't know
though you see it in my eyes
I pretend you don't see me
every time I cry

but most, I pretend you wont leave
that you'll always stay
I pretend your mine forever
although it could never be that way