Breaking Me

It seems as though
I have spent a million nights
Awake, crying thinking of,
How we used to be hand in hand

You keep breaking my heart
like its a game
I don't think you realize
How much you are killing me
blood stained shirts that will never be clean

These horrible things
remind me of so many better times
Then to think of how you broke me
As if never to be healed

Breaking my heart when it was never whole
Getting closer to the knife
each time you come and go

We haven't talked in so long
Hoping to see you in the hall
its like we are strangers

I'm still on this shelf
Hiding from everyone
Pushing everyone away
Hoping you will choose me

If this is the way its going to be
Ill just end my misery now
tell me
are you going to keep playing these games?
and keep breaking me?