44.I Remember

I remember a concrete wall,
I remember the glaze of the porcelain top of the toilet,
I remember my muscles clenching,
I remember that ring so well.

I can hear you telling your story,
Of how it all almost ended,
But I'm not really listening,
I don't really care.

I remember the granite walls,
I remember the light on the roof,
I remember my teeth clenching,
I remember falling to the floor.

I can hear a soft drip, drip,
Of my life dripping away,
But I can't fell anything,
I think I'm going numb.

I remember white walls,
I remember the white, uncomfortable gurney,
I remember my wrists throbbing,
I remember rolling off.

I can hear foot steps comming,
Of nurses, doctors, and paramedics,
But I don't notice them comming,
I'm in another world.

I remember the blue walls,
I remember the heart monitor beeping,
I remember lying on my back,
I remember wishing.

I can hear my mom telling me,
Of how it hurts her to see me,
But I'm not taking it in,
I've heard it all before.

I remember the same blue walls,
I remember looking at my arms,
I remember noticing the lines,
I remember closing my eyes.

I can hear someone sobbing tears,
Of pain because I'm sick,
But I can't hear them now,
I'm now lying dead.