I`m sorry for what i did.
for what i said.
oh how i dread
the bad moments we had.
i wish i could rewind.
rewind back time.
to where it all began.
it all started when i was young.
i was four or five.
that was the last time i saw you alive.
you made me scream & shout alot.
that was one thing i never forgot.
i knew you loved me.
& you loved me ALOT.
but that day i was mad.
& you screamed out my name.
you blamed me for something.
& i took it. i felt the shame.
it was all like you were playing a game.
i didn`t do it is what i screamed out.
boy ! did i SHOUT !
you got so mad, you had a stroke.
i thought that you choked.
i said fine, i`ll leave you that way.
but then i wanted you to stay.
i remembered all the times you carried me around.
when we played hide & seek & when i was found.
we had such good memories.
memories i never forgot.
you burped me when i hiccuped.
you played ball.
you even broguht me to the MALL !
those were the funnest days of my life.
there was no arguments or strife.
i screamed the loudest i could.
mom came in.
grandpa was all caved in.
i was scared.
i hoped you were okay.
my mom said, this way.
i went to the car.
we drove as fast we could.
to the nearest hospital.
like we should.
he was in the emergency room.
i was holding his hand.
whispering, please, PLEASE, old man.
the doctor rushed in.
i was crying myself to death.
i even almost lost my breath.
the doctor kept making sure he was alright.
all i hoped was that he won the fight.
the fight to survive.
man, i wish you were alive.
seeing me write this.
but you`re in heaven now.
someway, somehow,
i hoped you`d make it.
but WOW !
i cried my whole heart out onto the floor.
i would never see you forever more.
iN LOViNG MEMORY OF KAi KONG LEE. =`] i hope you`re happy in heaven !
