Why am i so lonely?
no one cares about me
no even knows am here
people walk by like am not here
is it because am not like everyone else
but i like being different
but that doesn't mean you can act like am not here
people judge me on everything
why?
but that still doesn't answer why am so lonely
no one wants me
no one to call my own
no one to love me back
am just a lost confused soul
with no shelter from the pain i suffer from
am afraid of the future
scared of what lies ahead
if my past and presents is this bad whats lies ahead in my so-called life
people say am depressing but i cant help it
this is how i feel
my heart cant possibly break when it wasn't even whole to start with
i dream in black never color why is that?
i screech to feel alive
i wish for something to happen anything EVERYTHING!
i stare at myself wanting to rip of this mask but i fear of what lies beneath
at night the sky seems black like my soul
no one to pick me up when i fall
no one to wipe away my tears when i cry
so why am i so lonely?
maybe i made myself this way
but how?
i don't know how to get rid of this feeling
this pain,this undying pit feeling
so how do i get rid of it
a question I've been trying to answer for the longest time
but i cant find a solution
i want to love
even if i don't know how too
i want to let go
but to scared to
i doesn't matter what i do i
i can still feel it eating me alive
i lived this way forever
hiding in the darkness of shadows
alone,crying,lost confused
so many things
to terrified to show
