If there was anything I wished you knew, it's just exactly how much I love you! I wish I could see your face again because your life came quickly to an end. I wish I could have been there so I could say that you shouldn't do it and I really want you to stay. Why would you wanna do that, when you know that I care? I told you the truth when I said I'd always be there. If there were a couple things I could tell you, they just might go like this, just know that they are true... the first thing I would tell you is that suicide is never right, that no matter what you do there's always some kind of bright light. The second thing I'd say and this is definitely true, that even though you're gone, I will always love you! The third thing I would tell you, which is exactly how I feel, that when you pulled the trigger you knew my heart would never heal. The fourth thing I would tell you and it's something that's obviously true, that when you killed yourself, you took a part of me with you. The fifth and final thing that makes me want to cry, is that you never showed me that you wanted to die. You woke up in the morning and never showed your pain, that's why I sit here and think about it over and over again. I wish that you were still here to hold me as I cry, because I don't know how I'll make it without you by my side. You were the only reason I had to wake up each day, you could always make me happy with the little things you'd say. I remember when you told me not to end my life, that there were so many people who I'd cause pain and strife. That night you made me promise that I wouldn't do that to you. How could you be so selfish? What about me too? You thought I could just let you go, obviously you don't know me. Why would you think that after so many years I'd set all our memories free? I can't believe that day when I found you in your room, right then I knew that my life was destined to be filled with doom. I can't get that image out of my head, you with the gun in your hand. You left me with all this pain that never goes away, but I can't wait till I see your face again on that wonderful day.
