No Feeling

My body has no feeling anymore.
I can’t feel

Tension.
Love.
Hate.
Denial.

Feelings I want to embrace.

Cuts and wounds take pride,
On my skin.
Sudden outbursts of colour,
With a red theme.

Human canvas,
Posing emotions in a different way.
Slip of a knife,
Hiding in darkness.

Under influence of drugs,
Alcohol and hate.
Nothing was going to stop me,
From destroying my own life.

Tears stung the marks,
Acid from cleansing inside.
Dug down deep,
I won’t be able to forget.

A feeling of knowing nothing.
A feeling of no sense.

I want to feel your loving touch,
Against my hand once more.