Thoughts and realizations

Day after day
night after night
i lay by myself
in terrible fright

I'm scared to be in your presence
I'm scared of what you may do
i often wonder what will be left
if you do decide to go through

I'm scared of my own Shadow
I'm scared to be alone
why did you do this to me
why did your heart turn to stone?

every time I'm by myself
all i do is cry
all i do is sit and wish
that soon i would die

then just maybe
you would see
what you were the cause of
and how you left me to be

would you feel guilty
of what you made me do
would you finally see
all the shit you put me through

would it make you sad
to see me lying dead
would it make you think twice
and regret all the things you said

would you sit alone and cry
like i always used to do
would you sit alone and think
about how you wish your life was through

but after all this contemplating
its made me realize
that i don't care for you anymore
and that now i can finally see

that you and me aren't meant to be
and that your definitely not the one who's meant for me

i hate you for making me be like this!