A life's chapter ending (pt 1)

This is quite long…but please read on!!
(2 parts)

This is my new beginning, a new chapter in my life
I’m going to take away the tears, stress and strife
I know you’ve read so many rhymes about this day
But this is for real, I’m going to throw my blades away

I have said I have done it, but I never really did
I kept them with me, in my make up case they hid
But this time, at the start of the school year
I’m going to throw them away and say goodbye to my fear

Then I will never have to pick them up again
They will be gone and therefore so will my pain
I might think of starting a diary to keep track of what I feel
The things I go through everyday, then slowly I will heal

Others can get over it, what makes it different for me
I know what I’m doing is wrong, I can now finally see
I’ve overcome one mile stone, and that is admitting it was wrong
To keep false promises and hide the truth all the long

To everyone I told, that I was over this dreadful thing
I’m apologising to you, thanks for ‘taking me under your wing’
Helping me and guiding me, although at times I pushed you away
I now know what good friends I have, you alone choose to stay

I know it must be hard to watch a friend go through this pain
I have witnessed it alone, and not wanting her to go through it again
I was always there to talk and I stuck by her side
Helped her with her new beginning and know she never hides