Walking down the hall
Looking everywhere
The fear on my face
The sweat on my palms
Turning my neck
Not making eye contact
Speeding my pace
Swinging my pack
Fear overcomes me.
I run to the bathroom
I cry my eyes out
And just sorta sit there
What do u kno?
Do u kno the real me?
Do u kno what Im like
Do u kno what I see?
dont get wrong
Im not suicidal
Nor accident prone
I love solitary confinement
But enjoy good chat too.
Im just so scared
Scared ur discover my secrets
The secrets of my past.
Im not the girl u think I am.
I am not whole
I dont wear white
And hes back
And he wont leave empty handed again.
I see him watching me
And dialing my number
And all those emails
They triggered my nightmares
I see him every night
Trapping me in my sleep
I see him everyday
Trapping in this world
I cant tell my bf
She wouldnt understand
I cant tell my close friend
We arent talking
I cant tell god
It seems like hes not even there
And I cant tell the devil
Even im there yet.
dont get me wrong, I want to believe
But how god love me
When ive done so wrong
My mom cant help
She doesnt understand me
I am scared, so very scared
Scared to walk alone
Scared to catch the bus
Scared to talk about it
Because of one overhanging threat
I should be happy
I have the perfect guy
But fear runs my life.
It now controls me
I cut my hair
Grew some more
Hoping you wouldnt find me
My school works downhill
My eyes hardly close
I hardly ever talk
Nor see what im doing
I dance like every one watching
And sing, likes thereÃs always another day
Even my birds notice
And give me there comforts
I hardly ever eat
And loss much weight
My eyes look sullen
My nose is so red
My lips are dry and cracked
And my breast are starting to sag
I dont care how look
I dont care if you care
Because im always looking for you
If anyone ever knew
I would fall through the cracks
I melt on the sidewalk
Tyffanie as kno her
Would be gone
But then again
Did u really kno her???
