You find me in my fall

Roaming around i wait,
wait for the world to stop for me.
yes stop for me.
i need everything to freeze.
let time stand still,
as i twist.

if i could make everything go my way,
i would do nothing at all.
if i could make the world stay the same,
it wouldnt change at all.

but everything has a seperate universe,
and i just attend to my life in the only way i know how,
despair.
i would get stuck on the mistakes,
the head trips, ego trips,
making nothing new.

and where do you stand in this universe of mine?
i have no need to make room for you,
because you have built a whole in me,
a desire to seek you, and when i try to find you i fail miserably.
but just when i fall down,
you come in your glory.
i praise you.......