I'm gonna hold on.

In a way,
I'm killing myself slowly
And enjoying the pain
Everyday I'm constantly
walking through rain.

They say what I'm doing is horrible,
but to me it is just another gain,
a gain that I'm here,
a gain that I'm alive.

It's very hard to live everyday
As if you're happy
When one part of you wants to stay
and the other wants to die.

But you know what,
I'm not gonna say goodbye
I need to hold onto my life.

The devil is the blade
And that blade is the knife
But I'm not gonna let it take over,
I'm gonna hold onto my life.