I love this pain

It feels so familiar, safe and right.
I have always felt this pain inside.

Sometimes I did try to seal my pain.
But it just feels some stupid game.

I never had had the feel of happiness.
I rather stay like this than being painless.

I am the top of this miserable atmosphere.
I could try to go better but I wanna stay here.

So there's just one way to go.
But this is the only place I want to know.

I never had anyone to guide my way.
So this is the place I want to be forever and today.

I have already wasted the life I had.
Without pain, I'd go mad.

I love this feeling, so familiar and kind.
It has just grown the biggest part of my mind.

But I truly don't care, what happens next.
Because I'm kinda happy now. That should do the rest.