What You Chose Not to See

Walking those bitter icy roads with flowers in tow proves one of my greatest tests

To walk down your street shaking not from the chill but from emotion winning the battle inside

I have come to spread the pedals of a million roses on your lawn in alphabetic fashion

In an I for how I wish to obtain your forgiveness

An L for how Lamentable I find our loss

An O for how Obvious it is that I live each day miserably with out you

A V for how Valiantly my heart beats when I awake each morning and pour on the false hope that I will today again steal your heart

An E for how Extraordinary you make me feel to see what true beauty is inside and out

A Y for how You make me go out on the thinnest limbs to just say hello and how you make me walk on air to get you back

An O for how I so desperately long to hear the lines of this rewritten back to me from you an Old line spoken to me again

And lastly a U for how I find it Unbelievable how fast my heart flat lines when it feels you lovely aura

Now done it has been said for the last time

Too late to save what it was meant to save

For that died with yesterdays flowers

Yet how I wish that I would have replaced one of the many with the one false one I had

Then I would know the words would ring immortal and the memories would still be welcomed

Instead I stay in the street watching the pedals blow away before you read what I wrote

Maybe tomorrow I will pin them down paying attention to soft detail

Yesterday I saw you pick up the rose I left a sniff it taking it in like a substance

I then saw you press it in one of your books and immortalize my love

I saw you but in all of a year you never saw me