I wanna know why I cant cry to you when I'm hurt! I wonder if you would care if I died! I wish I could tell you how many times my heart has been broken and left out in the cold! I wonder why your not the one to hold me tight and tell me everything is alright! I wanna understand why I'm your target when your mad! I wanna know what Ive done to be told I'm nothing! I wanna know why its so hard to tell me you love me! I wish we could have a relationship without the hurtful words! I hate that your the reason Ive tried to take my life! I hate that every deep cut was b/c of you!
I hate myself for not letting go of all the hate I have for you! I don't understand that b/c of you I believe I'm not worthy of love! I hate the fact that I have to question if you love me! I hope you know that I wish I wasn't born b/c it would cause you less pain! I don't think you understand that it kills me to act like your opinion doesn't matter but in all reality its the only one that plays through my head! I don't think you understand that it hurts so bad trying to love you! I don't think you know but I always keep you in my prayers wishing your happiness before mine! I don't think you know but I cry myself to sleep every night! I don't think you know how many times Ive dreamed my death and still I don't know if you would care! I don't think you know how hard it is for me to fake a smile, laugh, and happiness, when really I just wanna cry and scream! I don't think you understand how important a father is to a daughter!
I hate the fact that I'm always going to feel empty b/c you were never there in my time of need! I hope that one day I can forgive you and myself for all this anger in me! These are words I wish could be said but all in all these are unsaid words to you!!
