Suicide

I dont remember getting the gun
or loading it with the bullet
i dont remember unlocking the gun
or pulling the trigger

i remember the pain
and falling to the floor
i remember my friend
screaming at the door

my blood is all around me
its cold and is making me sick
i have no feeling anywhere
my whole body just seems to stick

my whole body is numb now
while my mind is racing
why did this happen!? how!?
now all i can do is wait to die!