A poem by a nobody (revised edition)

A poem by a nobody

~+*Revised Edition*+~

I've been tortured through my life.
I've been used like a mindless pawn.
I've had a lot of time
To be kind as the dawn
I spend every morning crying
I spend so many nights alone
In the freezing grips of death
Frozen in this chilling home
~
I'm drenched in all my tears
My body held in chains
You have to understand
This is not your pain
~
My soul is filled with beauty
My heart is filled with love
I'm an angel, but not from heaven above
~
I guess that I'm miss perfect
I have so many nice things
Yet notice
Those wicked people tore my silver wings
~
I need some medication to soothe this aching heart
An overdose might kill me
And I'd quickly fall apart
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If I am Miss perfect, then I'm simply nobody
Since nobody is perfect, that surely must be me
~
Don't ever call me perfect-
I also do have flaws...
They're the ones inside of me
The ones you never saw
~
As I sit here crying, please remember me
Not for being perfect, but for being somebody
~
I'm undefined;
I need some time;
Don't hurt me;
My body's burned with scars
~
Realize I haven't gotten far
Save me, oh please, save me
The pain has become too much to bear
I'm wringing my hands and covered by my hair
~
If I ever die, please bury me..
Somewhere not for a nobody
Don't show anyone my face
I was never worth the crying
~
A smile outside covered the truth;
But inside I was crying
My caring is not worth your tears;
I have doubts and worries, caused by fears
~
I love all of those who love me;
Even those who hold a grudge
Don't forget me;who I am;
Remember looks don't judge
~
If I treated you so meanly, and I hurt you so hard..
Tell me now, not when we're apart
~
I tried my best to be happy
I tried my best to earn your trust
If I must cry while having faith...
Then I guess I must...

(© Kristi Hancock)