Shiffting the blame

These feelings that I keep hidden
These shivers I keep getting
These lies I keep spiting
These tears I keep weeping
These smiles I keep faking
These guys I keep leaving
These things I keep doing
These things are because of you
Because of you I keep hidden
Because of you I cant stop shivering
Because of you I cant help but lie
Because of you I cant stop crying
Because of you my smiles are fake
Because of you I leave them all
Because of you I am half of the girl I was before
This is a mess
I must confess I hate the way you make me feel
I must confess I hate the shivers your touch brings
I must confess I hate lying to those who care
I must confess I hate crying over you
I must confess I hate my smile being another lie
I must confess I hate breaking another heart
I must confess I hate the things you make me do
Shifting the blame is my way of healing
I want to be the girl with her feelings clear for all to see
I want to be the girl with a heart so warm shivers dont appear
I want to be the girl that never fails to tell the truth
I want to be the girl that never cries her self to sleep
I want to be the girl with the never ending smile
I want to be the girl that loves and never breaks another
I want to be the girl I was before I met you