For My Sister

Life is so full of memories
sweet and bitter
there was a time in my life
when even i had a sister

the only girl i ever met with green eyes
she was just so beautiful
endless laugh we used to share all the time
she was the angel of our school

every secret she used to confide in me
i knew every pain she was going through inside
having an affair which was not accepted by parents
requesting -- scream, their was nothing she didn't tried

then the vacation came & we lost touch
she only called when the pain was too much

i tried my best to make her feel strong
but there were so many things i didn't knew
busy in my own world, never realized what all was wrong

finally i received that dreadful call
"Pallavi has left us all"

that was the first time i realized meaning of death
first time in my life i started cursing my breath
guilty was running all in my blood
day i could never forget of my childhood

never knew that this is the way
for the first time, i'll visit her home
so many bast*rds were there to console

not a single tear i had to shed
deep inside i was so dead

far from the crowd came her mother
confirmed if my name is Nitin
and she hugged me so tight while wailing
she told me something i could never forget

last time when Pallavi had a fight at home, she said
"what's the point of blood relations when you all can't understand me
i'll pray that i have Nitin in my next life rather than having you all"

something happened and i couldn't afford to stand there anymore
started searching for a place where i could hide myself
i knew this guilty will never have a cure

days went & i stayed on my bed talking to myself
i still remember those nights, i used to see her face in stars
just apologize for not being there for her

i still feel the same way
i know this guilty will never go away

** this is to a girl who was in my school and we shared a relation of brother and sister
her name was Pallavi Singh. For me sister meant a lot as mentioned in "My Son Neighbour's Hell" **
** just felt like dedicating my feelings to her....this is not for any votes or comments**
* thanks a ton for your patience....just feeling a bit low right now*