Arms open wide

Here i am ,eyes closed and arms open wide
wishing for someone to change my mind
Before i commit the unforgivable sin
Before i let my sickness win

The only problem is no one knows
That i always feel so alone
No one can see me standing here
with a face stained with tears

No one has seen my hidden scars
Nor do they understand why it's so hard
They only see a smile
The smile entwined with a lie

But they don't know it's lying
that slowly inside I've been dying
They have never seen my eyes cry
when i lay in my bed awake at night

They don't know i have trouble sleeping
that I'm to busy searching for some kind of meaning
They never heard me singing softly
Trying to calm my nerves

They have never asked if I'm okay
only asking if I'm having a good day
With "yeah i am" and a flash of a smile
I delay their questions for a little awhile

I want them to see me slowly cracking
Because i can't take anymore acting
I want someone to tell me it will be okay
and accept the person i am today

Because I'm standing here arms open wide
Praying someone takes my hand
Hoping they will heal my sickness
and tell me "It's okay ,I understand"