I wish...

When people see me smile,
they think every things all right.
They don't know anything about
the demons that i fight.

My fake smile is seen,
everyone believes it, by now.
you don't see the fear in my eyes, and all I can ask is how...

How do you not see me crying?
How do you not see me falling?
Inside I am dying,
and you don't even see me lying...to you.

I haven't been through a lot physically,
but mentally I've been through it all.
I used to be able to run,
but now I have to crawl.

Everything is horrible,
I always feel so sad.
Ever since all this crap started,
my life has gotten so bad.

I miss my life,
how it used to be.
Ever since about a year ago,
I just don't feel like me.

Deep down I don't want to die,
I just want the pain to end.
But I don't know if the hole in my heart,
is something anyone can mend.

As I watch my blood fall,
feeling Little faint.
I feel everything bad disappear,
all that pain and hate.

Every day I walk around,
telling little lies.
Nobody ever sees or hears,
all my desperate cries.

No one will figure out,
this is how i feel.
Only the truth can tell you,
the pain feels so real.

I wish everything was normal,
with no pain in my heart.
I wish I could feel how I felt,
before everything fell apart...