One Upon a Time......

Thoughts floating in and out of how it used to be
Before everything happened, before it all started
Once was innocent now is corrupted,
Nothing stolen but gladly given.
This life used to be so much easier when all there was to worry about was the latest doll
Now its, will I ever see him ever again when will I get my next hit, hope this don't stuff my life up.
How easy some people have it and how hard others.
Once upon a time I never had scars upon my body
Never contemplated whether to take my own life
The thought never crossed my mind
Now I sit with the blade in my hand and put it in place
Now I pull it slowly and pray for blood to spill.
Once upon a time I would of laughed and never thought twice about taking a smoke or having a drink
Now it just comes so natural and its something I seem to need.
But still with all my pain and stuff ups I worry about other people worse off
People starving, people dying or even just the little problems of day-to-day life of my friends
I worry and hope for nothing bad and if there is I wish share their pain.
The sweet and innocents left me from the age of ten
No longer was I what my parents wanted me to be.
Knowing how to stand my ground and put a guy on his knees
Grew into my attitude but yet it kept growing.
Went from pretty purples and blues to black,
Knowing at the age of fifteen what it is I want out of life if I don't take it before it happens.
Still I feel the pain of the people I long to help
From suicide victims to people who just need to talk.
So I ask you now think back when your life was so much easier and wasn't filled with pain
When you wouldn't lay awake and cry or cut, think of the happy days when you knew nothing of suffering
And re-live that moment and enjoy it.

*I'm really not sure i like the first half but yeah i not sure.... let me no what you think plz*