Waiting for the end

I hate the way you look at me, with longing in your eyes,
I hate the way you make me feel, the hurt burning inside,
I hate the way you talk to me, protecting me from truth,
Your procrastination of telling me; brings hurt and lasting hope,
I think of you when times are hard, even when I'm trying to forget,
Why do you like placing me in questionable pits?
Is it fun watching me squirm, trying to win an unbeatable battle?
You worship her with all your might, but she watches you in question,
Asking me how I feel, crying is her answer,
I hate the fact that I still like you,
Deep down I wish I could forget,
I don't understand how I could believe in you,
The pain being unimaginably cruel and inhumane,
I told you how I truly felt, at last ready to accept defeat,
Instead of an ending, uncertainty was your answer,
Slowly you're tearing my heart and soul,
Numbness takes over my body, as I try to forget sorrow,
Please tell me once and for all,
Do you love me or can I go?