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I'm sleeping while i walk.
blind to how i talk.
blind to what the effect of my words might be.
inside i feel a chasm.
so deep and wide,
i cant fathom.
my darkest fears are hidden there.
what if God came tomorrow?
and i was left behind?
would i care at all?
would i still be blind?
why do i have to endure this shadow over me.
it discolors everything i can see.
my world is gray and emptee.
my words are thoughtless, meaningless.
there's no rhyme or reason to the way i am living.
i wish that i could see all the hidden things.
I'm so tired from searching.
i just want it all to come to me.
God, i am begging you, please....
reveal yourself to me!!!!!
show me your mercy on this request!!!
i just want to know what i can do.
to always and forever, live in you.....