Why do I still love him?

Lost in aworld that doesn't exist
forced to feel either pain or bliss
never exact emotions but inbetween
never heard but always seen
fading away into a land unknown
this is the place that I call home
dark and cold without hope
all alone I learn to cope
feeling lost, alone, and scared
but no one ever really cared
remembering times when I was loved
and the world was a place to think of
but time went on and so did pain
so now I sit here, alone in vain
wondering why life is so hard
wondering why he broke my heart
suffering everyday from his lies
bleeding red tears 'cause he said goodbye
all I wanted was someone to care
but not even my love could be there
I'll still be waiting to hear the truth
but I know it's just no use
slowly I'm falling apart again
bleeding tears, why do I still love him?